Elvisa

Idag har det varit fullt upp på jobbet och för tredje dagen denna vecka kom jag hem vid halv sex! Jag klagar inte, det är kul på jobbet, det jag håller på med! :)
Imorgon blir det ännu en sen dag då jag ska försöka jobba in lite flex timmar!
Nu på kvällen har jag försökt sortera i min garderob! Funderar stark på att gå ner med vinterkläderna till källaren för det verkar inte bli någon vinter! Eller jag hoppas på det i alla fall!!!
Ska fortsätta med att ställa oordning skorna i garderoben! Flyttar om dem då och då för att få mer plats! Går inte så bra men man kan juh alltid hoppas!

Jag har tre väldigt små finnar i ansiktet som stör mig jättemycket...
Och det värsta är att jag för tillfället håller på med en kur som innebär att jag måste smörja in ansiktet varannan timme och inte kan ha foundation/puder pga min torra hud.
Folk omkring märker dem säker inte men för mig är dem som berg då jag inte är van! Har alltid haft ett väldigt rent och finnfritt ansikte att små finnar som kommer då och då stör mig sjukt mycket!

Japp, börjar blogga på svenska igen! :)

Drömde mardrömmar hela natten i stort sett! Konstiga mardrömmar som gjorde att jag vaknade hela tiden och nu är jag super trött men det är dags för frukost fika så nu ska jag iväg och dricka kaffe!!!

I just finished planning the economy for 2012.
Finally.
It feels like I've been doing it forever.
It is now past 5PM and I'm just about to leave the office!

TTYL

I just got to the office! I was in V-ås earlier today! And then went home to get some lunch! Today is gonna be a really short day but I have so much to do it's crazy! Off I go!!!

I read something last week that made me think.
Who is the first person (first few people) you think about when you wanna create new memories?

(Oh I wrote a really long post about this but decided not to publish it. I think this is something I need to deal with in private, when the time is right.)

I took off straight from work. Got to my parents house around 6.30, Basically just took my bag upstairs and said Hi before I left. Oh, talked to my sister, aunt and uncle for a few minutes over Skype too. Then I drove over to my cousins house and hung out with him and his fiancee for a few hours. Got home to my parents around 10. They were talking to a cousin in Italy so at first I did so too and then me and mom went to the bedroom to get my bed ready and ended up talking forever. I totally forgott about the time and ended up missing out on a date with Azra.
Had a missed call and text message from her but by the time I saw it, it was already 11.30 and she had already gone home. I couldn't bother going out at that time.
Went to bed after midnight.
Woke up at 9 the next morning and just hung out with mom and dad before it was time to head to the airport. I drove all the way and we got there just as my sister landed. I had just parked when she sent me a text.
We got her and then headed straight back. In the car we heard a lot of what has been going on. Funniest part was about Aidan and how he was gonna build a room out of mexiglass (plexiglass) so Ninna couldn't leave. Cutie pie!
We got home and she started going through her bags. I got a bunch of great gifts. A skirt, VS lipgloss, Burberry perfume, Burberry scarf a bag and much more.
Soon after the Zubanovic/Duratovic family joined us for some fun hang out time. Azra and I were going to watch a soccer tournament later than evening but first we had dinner. Thanks mom! :)
We got to the venue at about 9pm I think and it was FULL. We stood on the stairs watching a few games and then decided to go get something to eat at McD. As we were leaving we ran into a bunch of people we know outside. Talked to them for a while and it was freezing. After McD we went back to watch the finals and this time we even go to sit down. :)
I think it was 12.30 when I dropped Azra off and went to my parents house. Woke up and 9.30 the next day and realised I had forgotten my snood scarf. I decided to go by and see if anyone was there and maybe they found it. There were people there but noone who had been there the night before, but I got the number to a guy. I'm gonna call him tomorrow and see if he has it.
I didn't want for it to be such a big deal, I just went there to see but oh well, maybe I'll get it back and I do love it.
After that I stopped by my apartment building to leave a bill for the guy that lives there and then I went to my sisters house. All the girl were coming over. Azra had to leave early but the rest of us hung out and had a great time for a few hours.
After that Ninna and I went to eat lunch at mom and dad's house and then I left to go back home. The drive went by so fast and I was home early it felt like, I think it was 5.30, maybe even earlier.
Just chilled for the rest of the night watching The Secret Circle. Got to work around 8. Just had lunch and now I'm getting back to work.

Azra posted the link to this blog on her FB:

http://metrobloggen.se/alltombosnienhercegovina/

I looked throught the pictures and felt so much pride within me. I've never been afraid to say I'm from Bosnia, I've never hid the fact that I'm muslim and I've never let anyone talk bad about MY country.
Yes, I live in Sweden and I'm very thankful to be doing that. But, I don't let that take away from my past. I would never say I'm swedish because I'm not and that would mean I'm not only lying to people around me but to myself as well.
Sure, I can admit, Bosnia is not a perfect contry, but neither is Sweden so I can't stand people dissing Bosnia and only talking good about Sweden. That infuriates me more than anything else.
I've chosen to see the good in both and that makes my life so much easier.
Also, lets not forget!!! There was a war raging in Bosnia not to long ago. ALL of US were the victims of something that most of us don't even know what it really was. Some may call me stupid but I honestly don't know more than one race killing the other, basically.
And even that is harh to say but that's what it was. Let's not make it something else and say it was this or that. Bottom line is, it was racial cleansing.
Why?
Who the fuck nows?
What did people think they were going to gain? And, most importantly, did they really think it was gonna work???
It makes me so sad that we, our generarion, is now suffering from the consequence of their actions.

BUT, not everyone is the same.
We need to stop judging each other. We need to get to know the person to say he or she is not a good person.
Trust me, I walk around my hometown in Bosnia thinking who might have done what. Our past and history is gonna haunt us forever! But, it's only gonna influence our choices if we let it.
I don't wanna be that person. I see the good in all of us, at least I want to.
Sometimes I do wonder how a ethnicity went from good to bad overnight.
But claim they didn't do it. 
We don't need an apology, it can't make the ones we lost come back. But at least acknowledge the fact that it did happen. Recognize the pain that this caused a lot of us.
I'm not trying to make ecxuses for anyone or take away pain, hurt and suffering but some of us are hurting more than others by the events of the early 90s.
What I'm really trying to say is that this has turned our generation into some strange bunch of people.
The older people want everything back to how it used to be, while WE, the younger generation, well, we either take a step back from everything that has anything to do with religion or we go all in. Sometimes even too much.
I respect everyone's choices. I made a choice myself that some might not understand BUT I'm not trying to force my choice on anyone! Therefore, I need people to stop forcing their on me.
If I don't wanna drink, I won't but then again if I do, I'm gonna do that.
These days the same religion is not the same religion. I have people telling me they don't celebrate New Years becuase it's not the muslim New Year. Well, that's fine! But do you actually celebrate the Muslim New Year then? My dad has been celebrating THIS new years since before me and he grew up in a muslim home. And he drinks. What does that mean? That is the true Bosnian muslim. It's been done this way since before me so who am I to try and change anything about him.
Also, when I say I don't drink people automatically think it's because I'm musilm.
No, that's not the reason at all. I JUST DO SEE THE POINT.
And before someone gets at me and tells me I do drink, yes I do. When I feel like it, but usually 4/5 times I don't.
I went three years, during high school, when everyone else was drinking without one sipp of alcohol. Why?
Because I felt like it.
And I've decided to not drink this whole year either. We're gonna start with a year and then we'll see how it goes. :D

All I want is for us all to be happy. I'm happy with the choices I've made in life, it has allowed me to feel free and proud.
I'm happy because I have the most amazing people around me and the best friends anyonce could ask for.
It took me a while to realize that no one is perfect and we all have flaws and they make us who we are.
Accept me for who and what I am and I'll do the same with you.

X

Yes, I up and almost ready to head to work! I need to leave earlier than I usually do and I don't wanna lose minutes...
Well, it just so happened I woke up. If I hadn't I wouldn't have gone in early but now that I'm up I'm gonna do so! :)

X

Yes, I'm already in bed! Falling asleep as I'm typing this. Had a really busy day at work today and then went out to dinner and a show with co workers! Ended up staying only a short while and then had to go home to pack and clean up my place.
In between all that I watched a new episode of Revenge! Such a great show! I love it.
Just finished with everything I was gonna take a shower but I can't bother I'm too tired so I'm gonna have to do that in the morning before I go work.

Good night!

Just wanted to drop in and say Hi.
I've been really busy the last 48hrs! Work and and personal stuff. Today is another busy day but tonight I get to relax by going to dinner with a few friends from work. We're also gonna se a show. Should be fun!
This weekend got a lot more exciting now. First my sister is coming home, there is a lot going on in town and last but not least the Baby (and his mom and dad of course) is coming too!!!
Can not wait to play with him. My precious lil angel! Saw him last night on Skype and he was super cute crawling around. He's got a lil hair too now. Aww I miss him like crazy!!!

Ok, talk to ya later!

X

Off to work soon! I woke up a lil late today! Felt like sleeping in!
So, my friends seem to appreciate me baking.
Well, next time you guys come over I'm gonna make you the bread for breakfast! :)

So, now I need to buy myself some new things for the kitchen...Since I'm spending a lot of time in there!
:)

Got woken up by a friend before 7AM...and my alarm is set for 7.20!
Usually I would be mad, but I'm not because I was dreaming about something scary so it was nice to wake up from it. But the crazy thing is, I can still 'feel' the dream. I dreamt I was in pain and now I still am. Over 20 minutes later! CRAZY
Anyway, off to get ready for work. Ttyl